Admitting I have a problem...

First things first:  The Problem.
When I am frustrated and loosing my patients I think (and sometimes say), "Why are you acting this way?  Why are you not listening.  Why are you completely ignoring me?"  It's hard remembering that the girls are only 4 and 5 years old.  But even as I am writing this I wonder if my Heavenly Father is thinking the same thing... Why are you acting like this, why are you not listening, why are you completely ignoring me?
Thinking about this I realize it ins't the girls that are the problem, it is me!  The way that I react to stressful situations is impeding on my ability to show the girls I love them and to teach them with love and not anger and inpatients.
It's sad to think about this and admit it, but, I don't have a lot of good memories of my mom.  Thinking about it now not one specific instance comes to mind.  How sad is that?  Not just sad... awful!  I don't want that to be the case for my kids.  I want them to be able to recall great memories without having to think hard about it and I feel that with the way we are going... it's going to be hard.
So, I have a problem.  I don't teach and guide with love.  I guess I have the mentality of, "It's my way or the highway", which only makes me like Lucifer.  Scary!
So today I have started with love.
Kathrine didn't want to eat what I made for breakfast, scrambled eggs with ham and cheese.  Instead of getting upset I asked her to at least try one bite and when she was still refusing I told her that when I was pregnant with Addison that all I wanted to eat was scrambled eggs and ham.  She giggled and thought that was pretty funny.  And when I asked her again to try one bite she did so with a smile and then admitted that she too liked it.
What a simple way to help her out.  I stayed calm and she enjoyed the story.  Ahhhh!  Like a light bulb coming on.  There is no need to yell, get upset, or threaten to solve a problem.  Love... it will guide the way.
Addison is proving to be a bit more difficult today.  She woke up extremely tired today and because of that she is being very cantankerous to say the least.  So right now she is going down for a nap.  Hopefully when she wakes up she will be happier and we can continue on with our day of improvement.
Till next time...
My goal, to become and memory maker!